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你感受到了吗？为何我有一种很冷很冷的感觉？是不该期待太多或该说是不能或没有什么东西能让我期待的吧。

什么才叫挚爱?

The Love from a mother, who is noble and beloved! :D

Oh I didn't expect her to do this so I was surprise by her hehe Thank kiu mami~

And my grandfather, for doting me for that much. I love him too!

Coming soon!

HMMMM!!! I must be fair! I have soo many to tell and share here. More about true love, care and love! Xiihee.
P.s/ and how lovely the people around me, mummy papa brother sisters and grandpa! Cousins friends and teachers and besties. ALL!

突然然发现自己一点儿也不了解你。

翻阅你的过往只让我觉得,嗯...

你的真心太多.对谁都一样.

方式一样.

在我之前也一样.

只不过，我是后来你说比较爱的那位小姐。没有什么大不了的。

等到了你的下一个后， 你也会同样付出"真心",去对她好,

去争取她的爱,

和大家的感情.然后,

你会放开。

原来， 你的挽回不过是为了放开。   我了解了。

你同样的觉得累，

同样的觉得她能改变你的心情。

同样的回想她。信息里会放一个笑脸，

因为自己觉得快乐。

一样说过你会等待。

一样说着对不起。

然后逃开。

一样。

当我发现那时的我，

安慰正在伤心的你。而现在，

我变成了一个过去。你的过去。

还是一样，

我看到的是对不起。还有一句：

骗你只是希望你明白。(什么道理)

嗯，还有谢谢了。

要，我要祝福你。

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从此不见了。我要记得的是，

它不存在了。不会了。

太多了让人看了眼花缭乱。

你也不懂我。

选择。放下

想再和你聊一聊天就好像当时一样。想念当时的我们。无时无刻都在想念，害怕触碰那种当时最平美的感觉。一点踏实，安稳和肯定。 当中，没发现的不安已进驻进你心里。 最后换来的都是各自的“我以为”。那时一个痛心的事实。

那年，好玩而选择放下那个人，单纯地很喜欢很喜欢了五年的人。

后来，以离开的方式想维护着一群用心交的朋友，我离开了很爱的乐团。

再来也被时间逼着放弃手中很爱的小提琴，哭了几天， 也得默默接受放下。

然后遇到你了，也必需选择放弃你吗？

Be brave!

如果这是天主安排给我的路程，那么我走。我要很勇敢的经过，狠狠的留下足迹。

I have been good.

Having sore throat recently, cells in my body are releasing heat, they are naughty enough to make me suffer. Anyway I like their naughtiness. More of that, strong emotions are concerned and I've lost control. There's no rules of behaviour, I don't behave as the Angeline you knew. Smile and laugh all the while, who you may think her smile is sweet and you're being attracted. Human do have feelings, feelings are wet, and they scald your face as how memories do to your heart. Then, it spread all over your body and brain and hands. After all there's a storm and the weather getting so cold. You can't even cover up with 3blankets. Imagine, hot and cold exists together that makes you feel helpless.
I've gotta tell myself, "There're still many people concerning you outside your world. Keep your only tree nicely and look up at the sky."

Trust, and even Faith.

You felt insecured because you do not have faith in others and you do not trust in them. Anyway, I can still rest assured in the hand of God 'cause I always trust in Him and believe that He has a plan for me for whatever I do. He puts me in the toughest test and so I could gone through it with a broken heart. Thus a new, fresh thought and mind will I received from Him.That's ever great!

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Once again,when I look back into our 'memories',I wondered in which position should I be when I was reading those things.

一年来的感情怎么过了，
我们还是那么的热情，
我想了想了还是怎么啊想不到，
为什么我会，oh yeah
爱上你~呀~
... 也许这个是上天默默地~安排，
让我们不知不觉地~走下去，
我以为你会离着我而去，
但是你却选择陪我，
一直陪着我到如今。
baby baby baby oh baby baby oh baby
我有什么特点能让你那么的爱我，
我越来越爱你，
但却不懂表明，
你让我无法不在继续爱你。
Dear this for you^^ 

Sometimes, I just wonder should I take it serious or? or it was just some wordings.

有些话你不说,但是我知道♥
有些话就算你说很小声,偷偷说,我也听到;
有些话你没有说,我却明了. :)

Sometimes, I knew you just don't get it and think that I do not appreciate what you've done for me. And seriously you expected me to repay you, and be nice to me 'cause you want something back from me. And you think that is so called "LOVe". Small heart! You hurt me.

babey

I have loads to say, I felt bad,felt so sorry 'bout that. You might be pissed off by my self-centeredness. That's how we ended up with arguments. You do not trust in me, and that leads to why you think that I am money-minded. Yea baby,that's how and why. :) How to explain, is there a need to explain?

黑咻!

就那么心血来潮搬了那些漏了遗弃的回忆，一刀一刀割开当年蠢蠢的事情。里面有几封泛黄的信件，很难得的才看过真正泛黄的回忆。由于当时的内容都是悲伤的 ， 所以看了也不觉得什么反而更令人反感。不知觉得三年了，那应该是令人觉得经得起考验的数字， 但是这三年里， 我成长了很多，好得不好的都有。更现实一点但是更会深思熟虑。这三年里， 你却过得平平凡凡。 算了。想多了也只能庆幸我的朋友狠狠地拉了我一把，让我现在这么不能没有她。紫郡。=)

如果遇见那个人，我会看着你然后问候你一句，接着看你能给我什么。=）

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三年后，我心里一样是忐忑的。谢谢那些让我感觉到自己的心跳间接知道自己还存在的人们。与其说“我不是你想象中的脆弱”，还不如说“我会比你想象中来的坚强”。（在给你一个微笑=) ）

上主不会把我放在他不能给我力量的困境中的，他一定行的。

我反而会善待自己，让你遇到一个很好的我，当然，那你也不能太逊色。要不是时间和妈妈，我这篇会更长一些的， 哈哈。

指望

后来我不是发现应该如何爱来爱去，而是他多么可怕。好像不是原始的他，多少一些惊讶和难以接受。

Skyscraper!

Super nice lar this song! 'Do you do you do you really have to make me feel like this?' 

Skies are crying, I am watching
Catching teardrops in my hands
Only silence, as it's ending, like we never had a chance.
Do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

As the smoke clears
I awaken and untangle you from me
Would it make you feel better to watch me while I bleed
All my windows still are broken but I'm standing on my feet
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/d/demi_lovato/skyscraper.html ]
You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper

Go run run run I'm gonna stay right here
Watch you disappear yeah
Go run run run yeah it's a long way down
But I'm closer to the clouds up here

You can take everything I have
You can break everything I am
Like I'm made of glass
Like I'm made of paper
Ohh
Go on and try to tear me down
I will be rising from the ground
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper, like a skyscraper
Like a skyscraper

Jason Chen(Cover)

Yea I like him! Lol.

Oops!

Somehow I'm feeling disappointed now, I might be thinking to much again,sigh..
I shouldn't felt that, shouldn't have chatted with 'em. Somehow.
I can and 'm able to figure out our future,that's fun huh!
here are Some random words&sentences came across my mind these few days:
"I don't want to marry you but,who knows I will marry you, right?:)"
This sentence just simply came into my mind, and that's what i've realized after a sharing with my cous. If yes it is,then it's what meant to be,and let be it~ (How I wished I could Hugged ya tightly.)

"Whatever he gives, you take; He didn't give then you don't take.
And, You don't give. "
Ah Honeyy, this is what I'll have for you and me ofr now. Cous said, 'a girl can wait for a guy. But she can go for 100 wrong guys before she met the right one.'
So, what do you think? Isn't that great!:) 
I would say,"Let me use another 6years to get back what I'd missed.".

"That's why you're unable to be my bf,dude!"
Yea so, we broke. up.=)
For the brighter future i think. Go bah,go for a thousand girls who are able to increase your heartbeats and make you swear whatever you can. And you'll think, Who would you want to keep the last breath for?:) I'm curious for the answer among all questions I can ask.

Something that can be used. It was once a birthday present but now simply consider a box. Though it turned out like that,but that's made from heart. And you know it is now the matter of how much time or money had been used. I still like it,I like the thing.:))

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"Only Devil will tell you about the past, because that is a secret of everyone.

And you past have good sweet memories~"
The priest said this,and yea we shouldn't look back at the past. We should look forward and go forward.

So far so good, my freinds.

ah since when I lost the feeling of blogging =( 

I have nothing special to share as days go on like :schooling,stay back,sleep eat then homework...when I finished my hwk was like,'ahh late alrdy go to sleep ba....'. Lol.

Brother came back last week and had a magic performance during hsm Interact installation. Ah I met quite a number of various friends there, I was so happy especially meet with those secondary's school frens and juniors. Too bad didnt take a picture with them,sob=| 

Ohh oh oh form6 is quite fun! Truely speaking yea! We've done 3accessment for Bio soo fast huhXD

I only know that during these periods we went in and out looking for plants,flowers animal and insects for practical and acs! Not bad ya quite fun. 

That was our first acs Flame of The Florest haha! We went all the way to convent school to plucked it! Lol.

The second acs,we have to observe the plant and insect and animals. haha. kay this is not interesting,the more interesting story is........

SEE!!! The naughty snail of my friend ate up his paper!! Haha freaking cute OK!!!

So far so good for it,but not for the test lar don't ever asked me how izzit.=(( sad lor,but anyway I have to be more hardworking lar,sick-ed during test wth! The coming acs will be the preservation woohoo!! 

Also,I drew this for my babe cause I think that this organism is soo cute and I 100% believe that she wouldnt know wat is that for the whole life XD

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Fyi,Our mice hd gave birth to 9bbs but there are 7 or 8 left now. :'( Weep for it! Many friends asked me this question :'The rat so cute you 忍心meh???' Then my anser would be this!! "Sorry hor,they are meant to be killed they are so ugly." haha,don't comment that I'm a cruel person kay as we have to dissect them only sooner or later that matter.=="

Besides all this biology thingy,I felt nothing else is more interesting than this! Find it?! Throughout these period I mixed well with my classmates very very well and I'm happy and satisfied for it! What else more can I ask for?? I love you ,I love you,And you also.=) 

P/s: Don't you miss me?(∩_∩)

冬夜渐暖，人心渐冷。

这到底是盲目的乐观？还是过分的悲观了？

很多事情　不是誰說了就算，就是这样子。
你放弃了一些什么，我也能坚持一些什么如果说，这只是一个人的事。
 曾经在我们之间很努力，虽然我也害怕但是还是没有什么结果。如果说，这是你要的。

零

女生不懂，当女生一句话让男生沉默的时候，男生不是生气，而是深深的受伤

女生不懂，当看到男生一直快乐时，不是男生没有痛苦，而是全部埋在心底

女生不懂，当女生为男生付出的时候，男生不是看不见，而是不善于表达

女生不懂，当男生挑剔女生不好的时候，在别人面前却夸的如天仙一般

女生不懂，当男生转身的时候，女生看不到男生眼底的悲伤和心理的泪和血

女生不懂，当男生失意的时候，永远是孤独的喝着酒

女生不懂，当男生在坚强的外表下，有时候是一颗异常脆弱的心

女生不懂，当男生悲伤的时候，永远不会骂女生，是因为男生还深深的爱着她

女生不懂，当女生痛苦的时候，男生的心痛永远不会比女生少

女生不懂，当男生离开的时候，并不代表他不爱她，而是不想浪费她的青春和感情

女生不懂，当男生选择成为过客的时候，男生的心中永远刻着女生的名

女生不懂，当男生装傻的时候，不是忘记，而是在想如何给女生一个惊喜

女生不懂，当男生生气的时候，不是因为不能承受女生的无理取闹，而是因为被女生的话深深地伤害

如果一个男生真的爱一个女生，他的许多都是女生不懂得，男生对女生的尊重和爱也不会比女生付出的少，因为男生承受的东西本就很多，男生的心不会比女生坚强，因为女生可以发泄，而男生却只能压在心底……

：这一堆话，是导致你现在结果的原因所以，不要埋怨了。

This is how i feel now,'what's happening and why it occured?'

The flowers dried, I could smell the fragrance of it. It last or it dies?

LLLLLL

 That day I missed someone so I did this wrote this and send this to her,>< 

Heheheeee!!

 

You've got to know how I hate when she's moo~~dy in a bad mode. Awfully hate!

So I thought to let her calm down by not replying any msg =(

A day after ...malas nak layan larh but still as a FRIEND and as what I've been used to do, during schooling days, I drew this and wrote this and mms to her!! 

"Just want you to smile,I wonder my power still working."

"Still works."

Luckily ....xD

 And I felt I should give her more L.O.V.E as possible so I searched &posted this on her wall,

and I want her to know so that she loves me like that too! XP

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Another I. matter,hahaha. This is a rose that means everything to me. =)

Ahhhh!! Found this type of flower which I lfond of in the school I'm currently studying!

High School Muar, outside de toilet. ><

 Next time anytime,you(whoever) can give me this flower haha& I will give you a hug!

Recently,quite fond of DANBO which has a boxxy head. ：口

Wanna share few pictures with you all nah see see see...

This picture below is a very funny one! I love it!

 Nenek moyang ehkk!!

I wished I could sit on it and be your princess my dear~

I have many friends around me,they make me happy. ;D

 Tze used to buy donuts from Malacca,one for me and one for herself haha!

 He had his mask and it was like SHIT,black black, he said.

I'm in love with you and I Love You,<3!

Kluang

I hadn't been updating my corner for few weeks is it?? Hm...one of the reason was I still don't get my own laptop><! Why why why,and due to this laptop was my mum's,she kept it and so I couldn't go online. aiks. >o
Back to topic,I went Kluang last Sat-Sun for a CCCR Youth Rally. Before May I was looking forward for it actually but then after entering F6 I don't feel like going,was so malas to pack my clothes,hehee. *Sin*
Frankly,is good to join this type of religion camp as we practice it so that we could keep our Spirit always alive. Meeting God-Jesus or Feel HIS presence isn't a scary thing indeed we're blessed to live in HIM. So,I went there looking forward to meet my frens and to feel HIM again!! Many pictures were taken,had a great time with Louis Chan, Simon Lim. I met eugene,and Fransico whose name was wrong called by meeee during testimonial time ahahaha!! pictures were uploaded in fb,you can view them here >> 29May
One of the photos I'm so excited to share is the pic which i did looked like angry bird ><!!

 If you think we don't actually look alike then it's ok lor,just for fun lar haha,kenny realized it,=O

May day

 Lai lai lai,catch up with me at here!! Some pictures on Teacher's day are taken,there are many character captured but sorrie,not the teachers.=P

 She's Elaine,Elaine Tan you know! Partner in form6!

 Elaine and Zoe,Zoe! 

Us outside toilet,ahahaha.

 >.<

 AhaH! My beloved! Sorry my 'J' tobalik alrdy hhahaha!!!

Guy of the name,'T.J'! (ah ken)

 Hahahaa Willie Elaine and I. Camwhoring hehheeeehehe

 

Hot girls,memang larh!

SeXy that last!

Annnnnnd,realized that my hair is getting longer and longer! Soon will whip my hair in front of you. hiak!

櫻桃幫-你愛我嗎

啊!!在我们以前，都说好了不谈以后。现在是以前的以后， 怎么办?这应该告一段落，然后你感受到了，心，痛死了。然后我也死了。一段感情里面的我也不见啦! ><

Pre University

Na-na-na-na-naaa,I know that is a fact that I'm going to High School Muar(HSM) for Form6. So in order to comfort myself,we shall say "Pre-U" instead. HAHAHA. Anyway,I can accept the fact entering f6 but pls,let me study in a pretty way>.< I will make myself look nice everyday and be patient with the subjects. This is another stage of my life!! I wanna study hard.=)

 

Yepp this is me in Uniform of Hsm =)

frens said looked like OL,wth=="

Haha but atleast not that dull right? I love Myself soo much!

The Sijil Tinggi Persekolahan Malaysia (STPM, English: Malaysian Higher School Certificate) is a pre-university examination taken by students in Malaysia. It was formerly known as the Higher School Certificate (HSC).

后来

原本都不是我想这样子。好像有了心上人吧， 甭再停留想待着。我伤心，我伤心我伤心.....说了一千遍，你就会听明白了吗

whence silent occurs

啊今天到了。看见你开心，我就开心。羡慕吃醋这些都不必再想了。我也要开课了，要狠毒的吃,狠毒的睡,狠毒的啃书,狠毒的风流，就是要狠毒我的过日子了。不知道你有没有留些什么时间给我，不过似乎也不怎么重要了，你好好过日子就好。=)

一点点那么珍贵，一点点的事物才是最令人怀念的吧。我好喜欢你，好喜欢你，还有好喜欢你。=)虽然“人事已非”不过，哈哈， 

喜欢是没有时限的!! :D

ahhh this is so cute! Suits you.xD

生日快乐健健康康快快乐乐。

 Today is your day :)

1st May - 2

Hahah let's continue with the trip on Sunday I was so excited to share about it!

 

 Yaaaaaaahh I can't help myself I love/enjoy eating crabs so much!!

After dinner heading to Kampung Kuatan to watch kelip-kelip! FIREFLIES! The sky turning dark and the dao you said hopefully we have the luck to watch it because fireflies hide under the leaves during rainy day.

I like this scene don't know why. It gives me a kind of feeling.

Me camwhoring with Atap wu,like that style veli much. 

OOoops due to some donno what problem I couldn't resize my picture taken with mum,=( sad de lar. So I can't upload noW...sob. Hmm ahh we had good luck to watch fireflies but it wasn't as romantic as we thought they would  fly around us! You look them in the bushes just like you look at a Christmas tree with light bulbsss. Wth. Anyways I enjoyed myself seating boat in the river watching them. Hardly have a chance to watch mah. xD After our turn it rained heavily so too bad for those who were queuing behind 'cause they might don't get to see it. AH God Bless! We reached Muar about 12+pm,it was quite late and I was dead beat!! Smmr had to travel a 20-25mins way back to my home-sweet-home alamak! Nah,a photo that night I thought I'm pretty so how do you think!? XP

 

  Smile when you're sick and you'll feel better. :D

 

 After bathing and treating my wound! Nursed it nicely and went to bed without worries.=)

take it!

Nah,you can put the blame on yourself? I told you alrdy,and you are not listening to me,either you or you. At the last minute you blame me for not knowing what I want and for my bad habit even my misbehaving. So what? Everything is beyond me,I wonder why am I have to take all those rotten things and be blamed,Fml. Everything is just so simply unfair. I rather be good-for-nothing but not stand so highly. 

All for the sake of nothing.=)

1st May - 1

Yahoo 'm back from Selangor! Had an awesome day with the teachers, mum and siss.=) Yeepee! It took us around 5hours from Chung Hwa 3 to the destination. I woke up freaking early coz have to reached school early. Later My sis and I had mee soup as breakfast at the rest station. Look! What a sweet seat we took!

It's a couple seat mwahahahaha ;D

The first station of our trip,Sekinchan, a small town located in Selangor. Known as the “Village of Fish and Rice”, 适耕庄 Sekinchan, which is famous for its rice fields and its fishing industry. You know you know you know there was the location drama series,THE SEEDS OF LIFE-渔米人家 was taken. I had watched that drama series before so I was quite excited to visit that place!xD I wanted to step in that village and feel the atmosphere! [Those who didn't watch that drama,you don't know de lar~xP (no offence yah)]

The paddy field brought me a relaxing feel.great!

We also tried the baby rice ahhhh donno what to call before it became rice HAHA!

 

 Off we went to the factory of rice,haha!

That place was big and wide in the drama but.....==||| it didn't look like what I'd thought. sigh.

Aiyah,doen't matter lar heheehe!

My mum was quite happy lar she bought 5packets of 珍珠米! This rice is actually imported from

Taiwan few years ago.=D Then we had our lunch in a restaurant. The seafood tasted pretty good and I had a lot of prawns haha. After that I went to buy a pair of slippers as fyi I hurt my lit toe the night before. x|

Aaaa-sa-di!!

 Ah once I enter the bus,my sis laughed at me saying,“哈哈哈，下车去买一双冒牌的鞋啊！”

I stunned for a second and shouted back! "!!!!!!!.....是ASADI啦！" 

 Stupid!

 The bus passed by and I saw this,"I think I'm qualified to own that shop. perasannye!"

Done with lunch and slippers we headed to Taman Negara. There are monkeys! The special thingy is the monkeys' babies are all gold in colour! Really shinning that type and I'm not bluffing!!

Look how fantastic were they! They have golden baby but human don't! They are normally fed on long beans or bread or groudnuts... So,I feed them with it!

 Yea yeah. Awesome!

Next,look at this picture,it tells you how brave I was and my sis was a coward HAHAHHAHA!!!

The kind-hearted uncle.

 Walk up the hill and saw this unique cannon.

(Simply because it was pink!)

 Freshened with ice-cream in devilishly hot weather!

 

Haha spot my mum she was soo happy to see that those koropoks were sold in cheap price.

heheheeeee x)

To be continue Dinner calling! xD